Just as we get onto our Antigua routine and flow of life we are already preparing for the next phase of our trip. Nothing in life is constant and change can be  hard but it’s part of the good in life.  It’s a guarantee that nothing that is bad will remain forever and that even the best of times transition too.

Dinner table talk included the run down for the next upcoming days.  The LT40C “less that 40yo crew”… (feels wrong to call them kids since two of them are capable adults) finish their last day of school tomorrow and then we will enjoy our last weekend in Antigua.  I jokingly said to the LT40C that next year I am getting a white board like they have at the hostels to put checks next to the daily activists they are interested in.  It’s easy to lose track of everything when we are trying to throw so much into such a short time. 

Today I hung back a little and it felt so nice.  When I say we just got in our routine I mean the LT40C are now oriented to the city enough to lead the way, they have assimilated enough that I don’t have to be “as in charge” so today I hung back intentionally.  I am no one’s parent but when we travel with this group it’s hard for me not to worry about everyone’s needs and expectations. I am well aware it’s my worry not theirs, but I worry regardless. I worry about everything from safe choices to ensuring they feel like they have gotten out of this trip whatever it is they expected for themselves.   So I work on balancing that.  So sometimes I need to remind myself to adjust and step back.  A no decision situation does not mean I have to figure it out. I finally get to enjoy bringing up the rear.